Maybe I'm just dreaming out loud.

Wow, this blogging thing feels insane. I haven't done it in so long. I thought about it randomly, so here I am....face to face with my mac, listening to the clock tick. tick. tick. Having the most obnoxious two weeks left of my undergraduate career. Being 21 and doing unimaginable things. Fun things. I'm going to miss college so much.


I don't know what to say, and I don't know who reads this anymore? So I'll just leave you with this beautiful thought, the way the beautiful sun rises in Phoenix. I'm never ever going to forget this place, ever. I'm never going to forget you.

Hello world
Hope you're listening Forgive me if I'm young
For speaking out of turn
There's someone I've been missing
I think that they could be
The better half of me 
They're in their own place trying to make it right
But I'm tired of justifying
So i say you'll..

Come home
Come home
Cause I've been waiting for you
For so long
For so long
And right now there's a war between the vanities But all i see is you and me 
The fight for you is all I've ever known
So come home 

I remember Stormy Weather

When it stormed on Monday night, I sat by my window watching. I don't remember the last time it stormed so bad you could hear the wind howl through the vents, or even watch palm trees bend at a 45 degree angle. Despite warnings on local stations, the drive home was beautiful. Cross winds up to 40 miles and hour and breezing down the freeway at 75mph. It literally felt as though I was driving on air. What a beautiful storm. The aftermath was almost surreal. With broken glass, uprooted trees, trash trash trash everywhere. It felt so real. Like alive. Like destruction was proof that we live and breathe this life- the only unedited, untouched, unmodified aspect of our lives.....

Noviembre

I stopped watching Grey's Anatomy this summer. I was addicted completely like you and your blackberry. But one day this summer, I woke up and stopped thinking about it. Stopped watching it. Stopped making references to it. I went cold turkey on one of the bests series in television history. Now I watch ditzy shows like 90210 because Liam is hot and who doesn't love Blair on gossipgirl? These are great but they're the kind of series you can watch while you are doing homework...but Grey's Anatomy WAS homework. It had to be done. It had to be watched. Whatever happened??

Meredith Grey, though fictional, spoke words of wisdom, words of innermost desires, hopes, dreams, fears and deepest darkest dirtiest skeletons hiding in your closet. I would start watching it again but the truth is, watching it reminds me of you. It reminds me how we'd fight over the tv and how I'd torture you with the hot cold yes no love story of Meredith and Derek. But most importantly, it reminds me of choices. It reminds me of consequences. It reminds me of chances. It reminds me of Meredith's constant risk-taking in her medical career...but safety and security in her personal life.

I just remembered this because I just registered for an intensive science and medical writing course next semester. Good to know hospitals are running 24/7...perfect for an insomniac like me!

Who blogs anymore? Everyone's facebooking and twittering around!

Let the countdown begin. 2 weeks to thanksgiving. 5 weeks to schools over. 6 weeks to christmas. 7 weeks til 2010. 11 weeks till my 21st birthday!!!! OMG

I really so badly want to put on flannel pjs and slip under the covers. But Phoenix in November is apparently Phoenix in June- shirt, shorts, flipflops while the rest of america is cozying it up with hot chocolate.

Night lovers!

thoughts, just thoughts.

It's crazy isn't it? This whole Chicago-Phoenix thing. I wish I knew how it works. then sometimes, i'd rather not. It's weird. It's every place downtown. Memories, one way or another. It's a math equation dying to be solved. I know the answer, but I don't have a pen. Then write in blood, write in blood.

Faces, places, names and games- what did we not do? I can smell Fall in the air, it's a different kind. It's crisp heat that winds down at night, clean appley scent. You remember appley scents don't you? Do we forget as time goes on?

Hungover mornings after the Myst, scrambling to get dressed for school. Midnight rendezvous downtown singing Coldplay and Kings of Leon.

I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I've set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh, let's go back to the start

Running in circles
Coming up tails
Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard

Oh take me back to the start

All these thoughts from a simple my big fat greek restaurant card that fell out of my wallet today.

Lazy june summer nights

CNN and AP news put two icons on blast on their sudden deaths that rippled worldwide devastation. Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett. Yes, its sad to hear..I don't think any newsroom has been chaotic since the inauguration of President Obama. One of the many devastated fans, my mother, she is zoned into reminiscing about good old days with MJ's greatest hits. R.I.P 

Who knew so much history would go down this generation? 

What a way to start up a blog post, this poor thing has been abandoned since IDK when. I don't have a legitimate reason as to why I just stopped writing...I guess l just fell off the face of the earth of blogosphere! I've been having such a great summer, not worrying about school for once. It's nice while it lasts! I feel like I'm ready to take on senior year in August! The weather's really hot Hot HOT its sweltering here in Phoenix, so many lazy days hanging out...so many days by the pool and bbqing! Life is good!

Transformers was so GOOD. Josh Duhamel is hot. Megan Fox was SMOKIN! She has that amazing tan i love it! I was at the midnight premiere living off 2 hours of sleep the previous night BUT ALL WORTH IT! if you haven't seen it you have to! 

So Im back to chilling by the pool and listening to MJ tribute thats blasting on itunes..

until later, lovers!

CARPE DIEM

"He's right, Car. I'm afraid. There's a part of me that wants to let him in but then I feel myself put this wall up and I don't understand why. Maybe that's what strikes me the most about Kostas: That despite everything he's suffered he can still look at life in the most uncomplicated way. I've never known that kind of faith. It makes me so sad that people like Kostas and Bridget who have lost everything can still be open to love...while I, who have lost nothing, am not."

-- Lena Kaligaris

What about now?

Can't complain about a busy, hectic life right now. It sure does keep my mind off [other] things. I think any free time obtained is bad- it makes you think, it makes you contemplate, makes you wonder about the things you said or didn't say. I'd say free time is unnecessary. We rush to uni, work, then projects, interviews, photo shoots, and come home and crash. Then it repeats the next day. Then over the weekend, you might have occasional drunkfests, breaking into neighbors houses, midnight runs to dennys or ihop, just a good old fun time. Then the week starts again, and it's back to putting makeup, dressing, eating, or possibly interviewing when stuck in traffic. Of course 104.7 Kiss FM helps along the way. Plus, bonuses like meeting Tokio Hotel last weekend, getting ready for Halloween Bash, election night, exams and important Cronkite events, semester end projects, and crazy runs barefoot all around downtown.

Anything to keep my mind off you.

The sweetest note possible

I'm utterly disgusted. Some people make me want to gag. I just had a whole Chipotle chicken burrito and trust me, gag reflexes are brimming. The truth is, one person can truly make me gag. Hands down to you woman, I should be on my knees worshipping your ability to make me nastily vomit all over my top, and still have residue all over my face.

I wanted a graphic explanation right there. I can't well describe you, because, you are undescribable- in a negative way of course. Oh, and the gag thing too. I'm having a hard time typing while having this urgency to throw up all over my laptop. Seriously, I thought med school queasiness, 301 interviews and hangovers were all that triggered, but my, you succeed in making me gag even at my sober state.

I think you would be an inspiration for a new diet. Move over Atkins and South Beach, we've found a better substitute for instant weight loss. Move over anorexia and bulimia, this diet sure makes everyone gag- even without food intake. 

I haven't got the time to bitch lately, plus all that throwing up is costing my energy. I wish we could communicate on better terms, but I think communication is completely unnecessary at this point. So please I beg you, lets stay our separate ways. 

Love, Kav

secrets revealed.

Midnight posts should be entertaining but I have not much to list here except that I'm beyond exhausted. This semester I've been canceling stunts off my bucket list like no tomorrow which is amazing. Facebook is getting annoying, I hate the new version. I'm hardly on it now, and I hate having to sign on just to de-tag outrageous pictures some idiots- who I love to death- tend to post. You know what I'm talking about. Those career bomb pictures your boss can like never see...ever.

I want to delete FB. I came so close to doing it but I realized, damn, I have like familia all over this universe and our only contact is FB sadly. Ah technology, what would I do without you?

These past couple weeks have been interesting, everyday is a rush unfortunately. I have found out ways to access people's records. Is that creepy? My editor can access my FB account even though he's not on my friends list. He can view my profile, pictures, comments, whatevers on there. IS THAT NOT CREEPY tell me??!  Yeah, thus the contemplation to keep FB or not. Anyway, just to let you guys know- I know its illegal and all, but I do have access to your private records. Think bank, credit cards, status, criminal, education, children, etc.

You know it's fabulous, my partner in J-crime and I spent the last couple hours looking up details of....professors, sluts, ex-boyfriends, bosses and all that fun stuff.

Who knew backgrounding would be so entertaining? Law majors- you know what I'm talking bout! (:

Destination Truth

Hey gorgeous amazing world, how are you? I'm doing great actually, and by great I mean surviving with the ups and downs. Recently, life has been throwing in things that require commitments and lots of it. I guess it's just educating me with personal issues and whatnot.

I did a costume story for a Halloween issue for ASU's press which made me head down to the FAWSOME mega costume stores downtown. I love Halloween, who doesn't? I remember how back in secondary school my friends and I would be pumped for Oct 31st cause we would go trick or treating door to door in those amazing private estates right by my place in Woodlands. I think in Woodlands is the only "city" in the whole of Singapore to go all out for Halloween. It's just like a mini USA; people really spend on costumes, candy, and house decor. Plus, NTUC..or is it ShopN'Save..or FairPrice? what is it?! Well anyway in that grocery store, they have a mini American Isle where you can get awesome goodies like DR Pepper, Easymac, tootsie rolls, kool aid and all those fun stuff! It was ridiculously expensive but so worth it (:

ok, got sidetracked, sorry. 

Ohyeah, we're working on these blogs for Online Media class and everybody has to have their own themed blog. So I decided to focus on TRAVEL! woooohoooo who doesnt completely love traveling! It's going to be a guide to best destinations, must-see places and all that fun stuff you know. So, if you have been somewhere ahhhhhmazing and want to recommend it to the world, or ASU students, do tell me where it is, send me pictures that YOU have taken (and you will be credited of course), tell me what you did, what you saw, where you shopped, ate, slept whatever. and tell me why you loved it!

I'll feature this in my travel blog, which is currently under construction now. I did the first post on Singapore, so my fellow friends in sg, send me pictures of scenery, nightlife, coffeeshops, buildings, whatever picture worthy of places in Singapore that you have personally taken. I don't really like grabbing pictures online, so if you send me them, I don't mind crediting you.

and also anywhere else around this world! Where was your summer destination? gorgeous beaches? amazing resorts? breathtaking views? stunning buildings? historic sites? fabulous shopping malls? 

Your recommendations will be appreciated.

peace!

" If you wanna play it like this, lets do this. You, me, and this mind-blowing bottle of magic "

- M

Stylebook and Starbucks

I cant begin to describe how mindfucking the stylebook is. Everyday for the past 4 weeks have been hardcore stylebooking. Everyday is a coffee run to the Starbucks on central. I have a mini fridge in my room now and its stocked with Lipton raspberry, black, sweetened, unsweetened, lemon tea and starbucks frapps. I'm on a coffee and tea craze, oh wonderful.

Security asked me why I'm in a sweater in the 100 degree weather and I snapped at him. I feel so bad because I see him every night before he locks up the Cronkite school. Or does the Cronkite School ever lock up? Seems to be the mystery question. I heard the faculty have popcorn and icecream night while watching CNN on the second floor lobby. Maybe I'll hide out and do a story on that. Anyway, its freezing in the building all the time and sometimes I forget that I live in a desert, the temperature outside does get to a 120F and I'm in a sweater. Plus, with 301 on my mind, my entire body's gone numb and my mind's still on deadlines- like today.

City Council meeting on a monday night? again? Why does everything fall on monday nights?! Don't they know that Gossipgirl and One Tree Hill is on tonight? God dammit. There goes another day editing til one fucking a.m. 

On the more positive end, West Times is publishing my story so its all good. Thursday night will be pulling an all nighter for Friday's deadline. 

I haven't been to the movies in forever. I want to watch Nick and Nora's Infinite Playlist and what else is out? 

Friday is going to be awesome. I'm going to do a project video on House of Pain, literally. Keep you posted on that. Check out facebook I might post it there if its not too revolting. 

Busy, busy week! I miss all of you!!!!

(yes I will change the layout soon when Im not busting through doors!)

A twist in my story

Im sitting on this leopard print lazyboy armchair typing my business report thats due tomorrow. Its currently 1am and the only thing I can hear is the humming of the refrigerator and the ticking of the clock. I can't help but smile. I'm grinning like an idiot because I realized something so .. true. Like one of life's philosophies, only better.

So here I am, stressed as ever, tired and sick. but with a smile plastered across my face.

I am starting to comprehend the games of life, and since now I know the rules, I am going to win.

I will emerge stronger, better than you.

God help me seal this once and forall, like a time capsule itching to be buried by the favorite oak tree. Lets dig up the soil with our bare hands shall we? Familiarity with the ground as we all end up there eventually. Make me not only a time capsule. I need a time, love, distance, heartbreak, need to forget someone for now- capsule.

I'll dig it up in 5 years I promise.

Who is a journalist without a blog? How can I be one when I carve more words in my heart and have nothing to say to the world? Maybe I want to rewind time. 40 years ago. Maybe my existance would have saved john from being abandoned on upper thomson road. Maybe my existance would have saved my grand-aunt from taking her own life. Maybe my existance would have saved my (***) from crossing paths with (*******) so i wouldnt have to suffer this generation.

Suffer is a bit too extreme i guess. Im allowed to be over dramatic... why so many emotions compressed in this heart of mine. Its ridiculously frustrating and distracting.

Maybe time will heal... why the fuck am I lying to myself. Time wont fucking heal. I've witnessed my loved ones still be hung up on something/someone after years and years.

There's no such thing as a perfect world, is there?

I got a new ride. Chevy Cobalt. Pimpin it out this weekend. Its gorgeous GORGEOUS probably more gorgeous than any boy I will ever meet.

plus, it wont break my heart.

Double Fudge Brownie BnJ's : $10
Guitar Hero: $80
X packs of Heineken: $32
X packs of Miller Light: $15
X packs of Corona: $22
Baileys Creme: $15

Running to the neighbors house to get Tylenol : PRICELESS

for everything else, there's Mastercard

Best hangover food

Dear diary, I actually am sick of crime stories. I said,Cosmo not the freaking New York Times. My grammar and punctuation has tipped perfection as people who dont put commas in the right places should really just jump off a cliff. I am not punctuating this blog entry- for gods sake gimme something that i can type rubbsih on adn not wrry bout grmmar. I want to be like Dan. You know, a poet or something dark and mysterious. Maybe smoke camel and perv on people. or move to paris and write a novel. I have too many distractions so im really rethinking the idea of moving up to the himalayas with the monks and find my inner peace or something. but then id have to go cold turkey on all my disgusting, cheap habits. and my mind would have to be pure. yeah right.

anyway, that wont be happening until i start wrinkling, oh the joys of getting old and surrendering to the goodness and nature. we are living too fast arent we? My thoughts, priorities and clothes are scattered everywhere. How can I be so stable yet so unstable?

The heart can be at two places at once. always have, always will be.

Anyway, back to the point of this entry...best hangover food. Id say fresh strawberries and trader joe's soy ricecrackers. ohh they are so gooooood. and tylenol to cure that excruciating throbbing pain.

Political opinions and sensational rocker addictions

When did politics and videogames become my forte?

Ever been on the verge of quitting school and giving up on life already only to realise that you've got yourself stuck in this haze of mental unstability, time not being on your side and accustomed to stress 24/7, yet find yourself strutting down mill ave, swearing at your gorgeous heels, singing britney and throwing up after too much everything.

overwhelming i say.

Politics is so necessary in this field although im highly unsupportive of it. I have way too many opinions that go against my ethical responsibilities but what the heck. Facts and truth are so overrated. This industry is intense. Instead of mastering mass communication law, I have mastered the art of grand theft auto. In other words, I am the best car jacker and hooker killer in the history of GTA. Though my driving skills tend to be really fucked up, my real life driving compensates for that so its all good. My lunch breaks consists of rockstar parties with guitar hero - the solution to all of life's problems.

Im so so so stressed im going to buy guitar hero, quit school and become a ROCKSTAR!

Spiderpigs, green blobbles, constipated chipmunks, and bffs named jill

I don't think reality ever sets in for me unless its one of those nights when im completely awake and staring at my ceiling. These days I come home drained, strained and fast asleep by 10pm. As my room gets emptier by each week, I can only imagine how it feels like to be back in reality. The holidays have whizzed by way too fast and so has my money. Amazing. and first week of uni is over. This is going faster than i expected. I am ready to engage in my busy life once again when i leave home before sunrise and back way past sunset. This "home" is beginning to feel more like a hotel again.

I havent had time to properly miss people. To accept the fact that they actually left and the holidays are actually over. I'd rather not, actually. I pray that my days are busy for the next 15 weeks and when they're not, I pray to be drunk or asleep. To live my life like a true journalist- to turn pain into excelent writng, to master spanish, and smoke in menthol that supposedly gives you the greatest ideas for stories that make the newyork times hitlist. To survive on starbucks and nerd glasses and public speaking with killer shoes that murder thy feet.

I really cant imagine surviving this semester, let alone this amazing 2008. We'll see.

The third and final miserable weekend awaits tomorrow at the airport. Im surprised im still alive actually. I can write you a whole novel on how the airport is the most depressing place in this entire universe. Leaving is painful- I know, Im pretty much pro at knowing how to feel and what to expect but to be left is a whole different story. a different kind of pain, you know? Either way, its a lose-lose.

mm yeah... I'll miss you. all of you.
till we meet again <3

Its 3am on a cold saturday morning. My room is a huge dump and in two hours we would be leaving for san diego. Saran has mummified herself into a huge roll of...saran. sleeping! and nats doing the do do in the bathroom. the past week has got us broke, tired, and really constipated with coldstone icecream overdose. time to leave the valley of the sun.....but before we go, here's a pic to last you till winter.



bye hottie mchotties. see you in 2008! <3

what's hiding behind that invisible wall?

Is the true story of why things turn out the way they do, why people really leave, and why they show up again. why its so hard to forgive, ever harder to forget, and extremely hard to keep thinking what if. what we really see through these eyes, really think through this mind, and really mean what we say. what really happened. who were really involved. who really meant the things they said, and who really said the things they meant. what lies were told to cover up the truth. what truth were there in those lies. whats stopping us from telling. whats causing us to sin. and how they all tied back into one. every puzzle waiting to be solved. every doubt waiting to be cleared. what really happened behind those doors...and whats hiding behind that wall. secrets..if this is what you call, it shouldnt be legal.

for once, wouldnt you like to know the truth?

Im on a roll! I got into MIST last night cause of B's birthday party and she simply asked the bouncers that she wanted so badly for me (underaged) to get in. This is how we roll- life is sweet when you know peeps who work at bars! Same with janelle and her now fiance when he worked at radius. and omg how could i forget to mention this!! life is slipping by ahhh- couple weeks ago, mark and I sneaked in with camera and public relations crew to see kelly clarkson! the gammage was so crowded, we were singing backstage! then cronkite peeps arrived and we had to split before they saw us there or kick us out cause we didnt have tix. brief but i loved it! We overdosed on tobelerone swiss chocs after that, it was good times.

yeah..i realise i stop blogging about the good ol' things - well there you go! couple exciting things over the past few weeks. been really busy with finals and prep for next semester. did i mention i put up a mini christmas tree? its red and pretty! with loads of presents under it mhhmmm.

yeah anyway, next week is awesome!

I LOVE YOU GORGEOUS PEOPLE!

ps: people born on the 4th of december are phenomenal.

drink down and your candles burn

November, sleepy november. Going by fast. The entire semester boils down to this friday and the next two weeks. Sometimes i forget that 07 is nearing to the end, and soon i will be another year older. Wiser, maybe, in a way..i guess. Stronger, definitely. smarter, id like to think so. mmmm i can smell the holidays nearing. so close yet so far away..

I feel nostalgic, not so much now since im sick. Im happy, sad, confused, excited, heartbroken, high, whatever the holidays bring.. all gets down to tiredness when there's too many emotions all at once. really really tired. I've lost my drive to blog about happy things.. cause good things dont last forever right? god im sucha pessimist.

Every year we yearn to push our painful memories behind and walk into the new year afresh. Every year we make a new years resolution list that we give up on midway january. Every year we have expectations of what new years eve will be like, when it turns out completely unpredictable. Every year crazy people like us are out on the streets screaming our hearts out and welcoming the new year with thousands of strangers who feel the same way : tired, high, drunk and ready to face 08!

you guys ready for it?

So I had this emo post in mind, about how people change. But whats new, really? Besides living in this world of constant changing, i feel like i want to be the same person.. but i guess no one can ever be the same person anymore. Yeah yeah its so easy to say lets just pick up where we left off, but we've all become strangers. Its scary, it makes the heart skip a couple beats- and not in the good way. These are times when i feel like i can relate to onetreehill alot. Peyton says, people always leave. I believe i got used to that fact longgg longgggg ago. Im a crazy, wild, people person. but my heart doesnt open up easily. I guess some people finally reach the point in their lives when their brain processes what to send to the heart, and what not to. mmhmm, i have a super cool brain indeed.

5 weeks is a really short time. Its unbelievable. but with uni, it feels like forever. I find it annoying how people complain that they've not seen their loved ones in weeks/months. Get over yourselves, Im obviously stronger than you. I've not seen most of the important people in my life for years and im still alive arent I? Call this one of life's challenges. I fucking aced it. so dont be a little bitch and complain that you've not seen people in forever. i'll show you what forever means.

Why cant we just get what we want? Why cant girls just get along? Why are boys so damn complicated? Why is uni being a bitch? How do we escape this? I dont know about you but i do know that im going to the happiest place on earth-literally. with awesome people. and we are going to escape reality. I heard that its going to be fucking gorgeous, guys. Since its the holiday season, the place will be decked out in fake snow, frozen ice, lots of merry happy colorful lights. If i die in a [uni] combat zone, box me up and ship me home [there].

I cant wait for the best 2007 year end holiday! seems so near but yet so far! someone please just give me a time machine! anyway, my friend Brianna is mean! she says that i want to date a dork in uni so that he can do all my homework while i party...[good idea btw] but im not THAT mean.

K: Dorks are hot!
B: yeah, in the ill-do-all-your-homework kinda way.
K: ): Stop abusing me.....

Im such a liar when i say that brooding bad boys are not hot. IM SO IN DENIAL! i hate that i love bad boys..but they're so goddamn sinful you know..and addictive.... you girls know.... but you know what? ill pick a seth cohen over a ryan atwood anyday baby [:

[in jmc class..]

K: okay i confess....im addicted to badboys... ):
A: im addicted to assholes...
K: same difference. boohoo!
A: we make a pretty good heartbreak team
K: yeah, except we're on the losing end....
K,A : CRY!

yes, we are girls. and when lectures get boring, we tend to talk about boys, hickeys, hot CMM boys, random hot boys in class we've never noticed, planning when our professors will kick the bucket, doodling, planning what to do on fridays..

girls will always be girls

and boys will be boys i guess....ugh.

MY BOYS. THEY'RE BACK!




History is repeating itself. i fucking love this.

this bitter, but sweet sense of confusion you know? i really dont know how to explain it; how to make you feel how i feel. all i feel is numbness and missing; eyes glued shut . tears. and mascara staining my cheeks. why do some people want to walk back right in? why does the past want to walk back in? i thought i needed more time but whats time anyway? when years feels like decades but feels like time froze when we talk. for once, i dont have the answers. i dont know what will happen and my heart may just stop beating. its nice to hear again. its beautiful to know how much of an impact this is. it hurts so bad but feels so good. makes you immune to this. because we live a life filled with too many emotions, will we become immune to emotions one day? will we just be numb forever?

its easier to feel numb forever.

but its fucking amazing to put yourself through this whirlwind we call LIFE.

just [click]

sexy eyes you'd die for

Some may know him as the overly sexy and priviledged young man from the new CW series GossipGirl, and others well just never heard of him.

As the lights dimmed, and words turned into whispers in the College of Design Auditorium, I sat there whispering to my friend about how boring this lecture was going to be. We are such back row slackers. There was an empty seat beside me, so why not place my bag on it instead of leaving it on the somewhat trashed floor. The lecturer started to lecture with the powerpoint, and all i could hear was kelly clarkson's voice ringing in my ear. oh, i still had one earpiece of my ipod dangling on my right ear. Whatever. id listen to this than fall asleep in this lecture.

Looking ahead at the powerpoint in an almost pitch black room was killing my eyes. I noticed my vision getting darker a bit. Ohno, it better not be my contacts. It wasnt. Instead from the corner of my right eye, i could see a shadow. a dark lurking shadow. I looked up and saw this tall boy dressed in a dark collared business shirt with matching pants. Dark hair, mesmerizing eyes. holy shit he had mesmerizing eyes. It somewhat twinkled as he stared straight into my eyes. whoa, intimidating.

He starts to speak but its as though my mind is playing in slow motion. I looked at him, confused. He points to the seat.

"Is anyone sitting here?"

Of course not. thank god not! Yes this pretty boy can sit right by me. I grabbed my bag off the seat.

He sits, stretching his arms both ways, yawning then looking around with a bored face. I felt something poking me in my left arm. ow. Wait, no somethings biting me. omg. what is it? I look to my left and Angela [my friend whos sitting by me] is digging her freshly manicured nails into my arm.

"What the hell are you doing?!"

Something vibrated. Got a text on my cell. It read :

OMG i want to eat him yumm

It was from Angela [: Before i even had time to send her an equally yummy text back, i caught someone leaning over to read the text.

It was him.

"What are you doing?" I said, and quickly snapped by phone shut.

"ohha ah im really bored...." he said.

I felt my earphones being tugged at. He took the left ear piece that was dangling freely and placed it in his ear. I felt that biting sensation on my left arm again.

"ah, i love kelly clarkson..she's coming down to asu ya'know"

me: " omg yeah im doing a report on that concert, its gonna be awesome!!"

him: "hell yeah we should go. we'll do a kelly clarkson tailgate or something yeah?"

me: " yeah! count me in! "

him: "yeah thatll be tight. im keith. and you are...? "

" Kavitha. just call me Kay "

We shake hands. how formal.

[big biting sensation returns!]

me: "oh, and this is my friend Angela."

Angela couldnt wipe that grin across her face cause she's annoying like that.

This boy had the most gorgeous eyes with thick straight angled eyebrows which gives off the mysterious look. He smelled sooo good like us girls literally wanted to eat him. Dark, short, choppy i just-got-out-of-bed hair. He had natural jet black hair. Clothes that smelled like cigs. He looked like the hottest most attractive stoner i have ever met.

i wish i could just snap a picture and let you guys see the real deal. but then, i may come across as weird and stalkerish. so the closest definition would be...think stoner and mysterious chuck bass from gossipgirl...this one's only a hundred times hotter.

TGIF and peace out! <3

I LIVE LIKE A FRAT BOY

I LIVE LIKE A FRAT BOY

Janella schenlla said she would commit suicide if she had to live with me [and my mess] thanks bitch.

My next three weeks of school consists of exams and major papers due. such love. At least tomorrow is friday so its applebees and then crash home. I havent slept too much this week at all.

New skin. The old one is depressing for some reason.

Just got back from sin city over the weekend. You guys think im crazy going there very frequently. Hey, i dont complain and it sure is my getaway! The next time i hit the strip, it will be with fucking gorgeous people with crazy intentions like me. and awesome fireworks. mmhmm.

i dont have much to blog about these days. and, people dont want to hear about the same things, parties, food, uni, friends etc. someone give me an air ticket to rome and i promise i will blog religiously there because its so beautiful! I want to go to rome!!

October is fucking gorgeous here in Arizona! stunning sunsets!

ill have something to blog about. later.

I'll be leaving az this weekend. need to get my mind off uni and need to get the hell out of here. you know where to reach me<3

Recent addiction.



Watch the series, read the books. This one reveals all the gossip and secrets before the first book ever.

go get lost in their superficial world

seeya bitches

soon to surrender to sober friday nights. ew.

im a champion drinker. last night, i downed 6 nasty whiskey double shots before entering the house (house rule), then i had countless cups of beer, and also downed 20 seconds worth of keg doing a handstand on the kegger.

NOW BEAT THAT RECORD BITCHEZZZ

walking down mill ave past midnight, giggling in pain with our stomachs filled with pasta. talking to random strangers. carrying each other on our backs, falling purses, money cards ids everywhere. giggling on the floor insanely. "drunk dialing" people even though we were sober. running past bars and talking with random hot security bouncers. finally stepping into one placing ourselves in the corner smoking out strawberry daiquiri. dancing to shop boys. sexy physical flirting w/ random hotties in the next table. sexy accents. sloppy kissing pictures taken. flashes too bright, drinks flying everywhere. numbers exchanged. clothes pulled on. clothes missing. . clothes found. more dancing. beer offered. offer rejected. designated driver required. saying bye. polite kisses with le french/italian boys. walking barefoot. giggling. back to dorms. crash.

i say, party while you're young and crazy.

How do we escape this superficial and complex world that we live in? Why is the media screwing with our minds and transforming us into huge materialistic freaks? When did doctor 90210 become our best friend? How can we handle the drama going on in our lives AND the drama on THE HILLS ? Why is there so much competition to be the most gorgeous no matter how artificial you really are. (made of plastic) Why dont we just stop buying barbie dolls because arent we the live-sized version of a plastic superficial bitch?

When you live in a world filled with this much sin, it affects you so much till you cant be affected anymore. You're constantly on full speed. and when you're tires are worn out, you just want to hide in your clam shell for a while. just a little while? but you cant. you cant because you study in the most superficial industry. When you're a journalism/media/mass comm/fashion student, you can kiss your simple days goodbye.. and enter the dark world where your life revolves around the 7 deadly sins.

i can begin to explain to you in detail how i am largely affected by each sin, but it just might be too dark for some to handle. besides, i wouldnt want to strip the daylight from some of you innocent people who live bright,sunny, and dandy lives.

later.

Here's three good reasons how i know that I am going out of my mind: (and the explanations as to why thats a huge deal)

I am colour coordinating my entire closet.
Firstly, i never colour coordinate my closets, and i pity fashion interns who have to do that. Ok, i dont even organize my closet, hardly clean it ever.

I am taking constructive notes in class.
I already took enough notes in secondary school to last me a lifetime. I really dont need more. I rely on the lecture slides and study off them online. but recently, ive been taking lots of notes...

I have been ignoring the bible.
ah, im guilty. I used to read it all the time. but now, i just feel like theres no time to read it and i feel a part of me is not complete. i feel so lost in life.

now im gonna take a break for a while and read the bible. I seriously dont know how i would cope without it mentally, emotionally, and socially. worship the bible people. please dont think im preaching, but ever since i devoted myself to it, life has been good [:

THE BIBLE



I

its britney, bitch.

ITS BRITNEY, BITCH

So, in a couple hours time, the world will finally see if Britney Spears makes a good comeback. According to rumors/rumours, Ms Spears is going to be the opening act of the MTV Video Music Awards in Las Vegas, Nevada. With Criss Angel, her performance partner and supposedly current romance partner (wtf britney?), she will be doing the most awaited comeback in the entire history of ..Britney Spears.

ok, im a true Britney fan, and i really dont give a shit if you like it or not. I have a giant freaking poster of her on my wall, but i dont idolize her, i admit, sometimes i even forget that she's on my wall but thats ok. I support britney and thats all that matters. I dont care about who she dates, how she abuses her kids and her currently bald head. really dont give a shit. all i care about is the music she makes. i know...im sucha weird fan.

anyway, my point is, i admit i love britney [: (and you guys do too, you're just in denial.......)

[vanessa hudgens had a naked picture scandal, say bye to HSM3! ]

*UPDATE* Apparently, zac efron was the one who took it.

*UPDATEUPDATE* Parents are banning their kids to watch/buy HSM stuff cause of the scandal. damn vanessa, you're sucha whore but i still love your songs [:

*MAJOR UPDATE*

So terrible, its almost as if she did it on purpose. Sloppy and unrehearsed. WHY BRITNEY!?

IM GOING TO PARTY LIKE A ROCKSTAR AND NOT WORRY ABOUT COMMITMENT ISSUES.

since when do rockstars commit anyway?

i didnt realise this was on video. but after several loud bangings on the doors of hassayampa dorms on Friday afternoon, yeah it was pretty cool actually [:

damn what the hell did i get myself into?!

Reality is gonna hit me hard on the 20th.
is this really happening? ugh

[click awayyy]

[clickclick]

i really hate the stress im getting from doing all the admin shit for uni
and book reservations
and class schedules,
class confirmation,
parking permits,
season tickets,
bus schedule,
orientation,
sun card,
advising,
honors,

thats JUST school. then welcome

MAJOR CAR WASH. i need this so badly inside and out. i dont know whats living under those car seats.
MINOR ROOM CLEANING. organise!! fuck i cant even find my files and shit from last semester
MAJOR HOUSE CLEANING. we always have guests over at all the wrong times. plus, i dont even like them ):
MAJOR HANGING OUT with buddies i wont see again after we all disperse into various universities nationwide ):
MINOR haircut. i want something punkrock and totally do that flippy thing (quote: emo kid song) NOT!
MAJOR booze&lights night. yeah one last one before we welcome the semester from hell!

major..minor. omg im so thinking school!
nooo ive been bitten by the stress-about-school bug!
i need to survive the next four months.

*imagines late night messy hair, glasses, sitting infront of the laptop, frantically typing up a paper thats due the next day. on the phone the same time discussing about what the lecturer was talking about TWO months ago, and also filling in a little gossip and drama here and there about certain people. then stopping for coffee. and more coffee. maybe a redbull or two. sitting back infront of the screen and wishing you spent the last two weekends doing this paper, followed by a one minute breakdown over stupidity and procrastination, followed by flipping textbooks and notes. looking at the time, then wondering who else is up besides you, and then proceed to call people and see how they are coping only to find out that the majority of the class population are passed out already due to the beer pong that you didnt attend (thank god!) and then dragging your ass to school the next day to find half the people not showing up. handing in your paper in your pajamas and trucker cap, then heading back home to crash badly*

ah, memories.

(oh yeah, go checkout drunkenthoughts on my links and give me ideas)

There's something so calming about the rain. It's really peaceful and im enjoying every bit of it because it hasn't rained in phoenix since January 2007. Its shocking that its raining in this 45 degree C/ 115 degree F weather. It looks gorgeous from inside.



Something about the air outside smelt so familiar. It was like a million memories flying all over the place and my brain is trying to figure out what it is. Rain, muddy grass, running, pool, drenched, leather jacket, pine cone trees, chips and salsa, laughter, friends, highschool..




Then everything finally came into focus. PALMVALLEY. the exact same musky smell everytime it rains. whoa.



rainy days are ♥

Angela is forcing me to go to a frat party AGAIN! bitchszx. Frat parties are so lame seriously, it gets old. maybe if i was feeling like a whore i would go crash but honestly, it makes me sick.

BUT

i love toga parties! HELLO! what happened to toga parties?! we should throw more toga parties and have more beer pongs and you know chill and dance till we all pass out like wasted greek people in random places. cmon it'll be fun! i demand more toga parties!!

for now, im contented with crashing at applebees on friday nights. anything for that chocolate brownie melt yummmmm

ok bye im off to the city of sins [:

Cappie is gorgeous in the most dorkiest way. this is one frat boy i like!

watch greek! sucha typical american STEREOTYPED college life. haha!

omg i think i found someone ive not seen for 13 years. whoa.
we were best friends when i was 5, and he was 7
i remember how my dad used to drive me over when he wanted to hang with his dad.
we'd go into his room and he'd show me all his arcade tickets that he had. in this HUGE bag.
then i showed off my circus-circus tickets and we'd talk about how awesome vegas is.
he was my vegas buddy cause our families always went together.
our moms dressed us up RETRO omgzzz
i was so retro when i was 5 i swear. colorful dresses with beads and stockings and cute shoes that matched my funky hair accessories. HAHA ohgod

omg ive always wondered where he was.
i think i last saw him on my..7th birthday when i was hiding in the bathroom for some weird reason..
ohyeah, my cousins always make me cry. they're mean. HAHA KIDDING! not
but yeah this boy just suddenly popped up in my mind when my dad mentioned about his old friend.
hes probably 20 right now, with gorgeous hair and eyes and a sexy ass tattoo.
haha!

im sucha dreamer. but really, it'd be nice to see someone familiar after 13 years.

throw it away
forget yesterday
we'll make the great escape

clean room!!

i breathe clean

Here's the outcome. I feel totally clean man.

















Now thats out of the way with.. i got my ASU map in the mail.



Take a look at the huge ass campus map which screams LOST!!



Like whoa, seriously. the school is a city by itself i swear. those tiny words are all the buildings....




campus orientation is gonna be so fun [:

summer room cleanup

Since janelle and her fiance are off for a little vacation up in scottsdale, she kindly let me OWN her digicam..but only for the weekend. i know i spent all these money on makeup, clothes, booze and gas, i could have saved up to get my own right? i just want my old one back! ): i miss it sooo much is that hard to ask. also, its the only digicam that doesnt make me look...unglam.

but im seeing my true love this december after we've been parted for...more than a year. actually, im seeing a couple true loves this december. i should name my digicam..one we're reunited...we had so much history together i swear. hahaaa im starting to sound lame. but anyway, since jan's digicam is mine for the weekend, id LOVE to show you the state of my room..like how it usually is.. so this is NOT for the weak hearted...or the faint...old people...or pregnant women..whatever is on the rollercoaster frontboard (:

me! camwhoring before doing major cleanup! [:



my bed is somewhere under all that junk i swear. omg. wow i just realised how embarassing this is. but, i really can live in this mess. yeah....



This is my junk shelf...wait, isnt my whole room a junk shelf? yes yes it is...



interesting dresser...it takes me an average of 10 mins to find my eyeliner. somewhere in there. everyday's a new adventure[:



study table?! hahah yes i do extremely constructive studying here. REALLY BELIEVE ME!



yeah here's the sideview.



here's whats inside one of my wardrobes. i cant show you the other one cause you may just stop breathing.



sideview of my bed. see that little space on the top left? yeah thats where i sleep. by the morning half the stuff on the bed will be on the floor.



FINALLY i got that off my chest. i know im a very messy lady BUT i have my reasons. now im going to do a nice cleanup to make my room at least look breathable. oh, and also that my dad is coming back from alaska today. i dont want him to take a huge black garbage bag and dump everything out...like what he said he'd do.

we also had a deal about me being responsible and how people will react when they see the state of my room. now, im going to do myself and him a favor and be a clean organized girl. which i hope will last me at least a week [; ok, im seriously trying to change my sloppy lifestyle here, a little encouragement HELLO!

will post up pictures of breathable room later!

some loser is plunging to his social death.
really sooon

i HATE BEING IMPULSIVE!! AND OMG WE JUST RENTED TURISTAS WE'RE GONNA WATCH IT BUT THE GUYS ARE PLAYING COUNTERSTRIKE. GAY! SO IT JUST US GIRLS. AND STUPID JAN SAID THE HOUSE IS HAUNTED. NOW I CANT GO PEE OR TO THE KITCHEN OR THE POOL...AND IM TYPING IN CAPS CAUSEEE IM SCARED TO DEATH. BUT, WE ARE GOING TO PLAY A SICK JOKE ON THE GUYS. A REALLLY REEEAAAALLLLLY SICK JOKE. SO SICK THAT IM SCARING MYSELF..I THINK I NEED A BUDLIGHT

lalalalala

My dad is off to Alaska! for two weeks. which means my two weeks of vacation has just begun. BLISS!
i just heard one of the greatest news in the entire world! and ive been in a happy mood since then. the secret wont be out not for another couple of months (:

i slept over at tricias place on friday night- and theres always drama there. ALWAYS. oh, and i like the fact that hot boys have access to her house in the middle of the night and we all end up on the couch with budlight and she comes out and screams at us. i love it! right.. ive been on "boy arrest" for the longest time ever but i keep breaking the rules. hehe.

"Boy arrest" - stay away from men above 21.

i also babysat this cutest most lovelyest most adorable baby girl ever!!! omg shes sucha cutie shes only 9 months old. i love her to bits even though she puked on me..and i had to clean her dookie up and pay attention to her 24/7. shes teething and so so soooooooooo adorable. she was the baby that never cried. she had the greenest eyes with the roundest face with dark hair and i actually didnt feel like laughing (like nat would say) i just wanted to kidnap her and runaway! she distracted me from all the boys at the house. seee! thats how cute she is!!

ah, life has been good so far. i know what a shocker. but really it has. i just want plans to flow smoothly for the rest of the year and everything will be great!

love,
kav

beer

chuuuuug

fuck! I have a beer belly!! OMG.
i can so tell cause its not flabby at all..its bloated and firm-so not pmsing
god im such a man
i need to stop drinking every night
I PROMISE I WILL ONCE THIS WEEKEND IS OVER
you should see my beer belly
its making me look pregnant- which im not btw im 100% sure
what is beer doing to me?!
i know its crazy cause i used to HATE beer
but having a dad who works in the airforce?
thats like beer party every night.
and now budlight with lime is good.
especially with lays chips.
SO GOOD SOOO GOOOD.
come live with me, i'll turn you into a beer freak.
and its been ages since i had one of those girly strawberry martini thingamajigies.


nat remember?

" and yes i like to stone
and get wasted everynight
i drink tiger beer
and i smoke weed
but im still....
PRETTY HOT!"

"AND I HAVE TONS OF GIRLFRIENDS THAT WANNA SLEEP WITH ME
YEAH IM HOT
I KNOW IM HOTTTTTTT"

[ITS CALLED LIVING FOR THE NIGHTS WE DONT REMEMBER, WITH THE PEOPLE WE'LL NEVER FORGET]

JORDIN SPARKS!

yes she won, this amazingly talented young lady- or should i say teen. shes only seventeen!

from Arizona Idol to American Idol!

wonderful show tonight and is blake getting less hot or what? he looks so much better with jet black hair and dark clothes.

so the valley is going crazy. i went downstairs to the clubhouse pool and we barbequed and waited for the results. when jordin won, it was seriously like some new years eve coundown thing. holy shit!

go arizona!

and will someone please tell me how to fucking survive a hangover when u've got class at 730am the next day?!?!

my summer class starts next week and you have no idea how pissed i am!! what kinda holiday is this!?

what a small world

what a small world.....

Dont you think its quite freaky that everyone knows everyone in singapore? no really, is it just me or what? every new person i meet who has been to/ lived in singapore knows someone i know. and not just yeah ive seen him around. more like, omg we are such good friends. and its sooo strange. its like the next person you meet is probably the best friend of your mom/dad/sister/aunt/grandparent/brother/uncle/sisterinlaw/brotherinlaw/niece/ nephew/friend/maid/the postman/your teacher/the security guard/ SOMEBODY you know. talk about creepy.

also, i noticed that, if you do something, the whole world (aka singapore) ends up knowing..for example omg did you hear that he/she dyed her hair pink/got a tattoo/got a piercing/smoked a cigarette/bought prata at the coffeeshop/winked at someone/ranaway/got kicked out/was so rude/failed the exam/did well for the exam/came home late/went out late/got drunk/went clubbing...etc.

chances are, my grandma and your grandma are best friends and they tell the world about how we go out too much and party our assess off..drink too much alcohol and come home having the worst hangovers possible.

people you dont even know, know your life story

dream school?

DREAM SCHOOL AND DORM PORN

so whats your dream university? let me guess, one of those ivy league schools yeah? Harvard, Yale, UCB, Princeton, Stanford, Boston Uni. schools like that you would DIE to get into right? why? because they are so presitigious and conservative? so powerful and screams intellectual? so ancient and popular? smart asses with 4.0gpa who'll get excellent jobs with their degree? hah. not after this, you wont.

this should be an eye opener for alot of you guys out there. DONT judge a book by its cover, seriously. after i watched the tyra banks show today, i was like "AND I THOUGHT ASU WAS BAD!" ohmygod!

dorm porn. yeah you have it in every uni i get it. but, it all started in harvard! they had their own pimps and stuff for "out of campus frat boy-and sorority girl sex!" college students around the united states videotaping dorm porn. yeah..thats bad already, then a university introduces college students sex/porn magazine- starring- college students in that university!

which uni i wonder...asu? ucla? ucb? nyu? nah......

HARVARD UNIVERSITY!

yes you heard it right people! the student government is supporting the sex magazine of harvard! be in utter complete shock! in prestigious schools? hah, scratch that. what prestigious?! harvard students claim its "art". uhhyeahsure.
omg this is like a nightmare. like harvard students gone wild! haha..maybe they got sick of being so nerdy and sexually deprived, they had to let loose! (okay this is a serious matter but i cant help to be in shock and laugh at the same time because its harvard going playboy! HAHA)

and then the supporting universities with their own porn mags and dorm porn....
second runner up goes to .....*drumroll* YALE!
runner up goes to....*drumroll* BOSTON UNI!

what a highlight of the day!!!

so people, dont study so hard and try and make it to the uni of ur dreams..not worth it..unless u wanna be a pornstar (gasp! i see the look in some of ur faces!)

seeeya l8er g8erts

grd night 07

THE CONSECUTIVE PARTYING STARTED LAST NIGHT

Graduation 2007 = Awesome!
I emceed with this other dude, did beer pong with nick, danced with martin!! ahhh it was awesome!!!
even though the wind was bad and my dress kept flying everywhere..me and the girls were going craaaazy.

then there were fireworks- BEAUTIFUL!! purple and orange - color of the school and the phoenix suns. haha
caps are gowns were gorgeous!!!! metallic purple and obviously i added glitter to them for tricia's gown.
you guys know i add glitter to anything! LOVE IT!!

so me and nick went back to tricias place with the girls to chug down beer before coming back to school and chugging down more gatorade- man we were tipsy the whole night! best graduation ive ever been to even though it wasnt mine!

so today, party at tricia's with more long island iced tea mixed by nick and he puts godknowswhat in it. more partying!! then off to dinner at ASU with brandy and partying at gary's house!!! all in one sat night!

ttyl peoples!! i'll see ya when summer class starts in 3 weeks! BYEEEEEEEEEEEEE

dance concert

DANCE CONCERT

Went with dearest lauren today for a highschool dance concert. it was fabulous but highschool screams bitch all over again.
really. the aura was weird. and very bitchy. just like how highschool used to be. thank god im out of highschool! oh, not that college doesnt scream bitch..college screams..whore! if you get what i mean.

anyway..

i had rehersal today to speak on friday's grad night! oh! did i mention? i have to speak infront of thousands of people on grad night! ahh! and its not even MY grad night. omg *pictures hilary duff giving grad speech on the lizzie mcguire movie* then i have this male partner- so we're going to be in formal.

yeah finals are over! which means PAR-TAY!

friday night is going to be bitter-SWEEEEEEEEEET.

last week

LAST WEEK!

yes you heard it right!

BOOYAH!

rarr

Recently, boys have been CALIENTE!
only good for parties
BUT DAMN USELESS IN THE REAL WORLD

finals please be over quick so i can hit the clubs and be broke!

wait..i already am broke. UGH!

the other side isnt very pretty

Lately, i realise that the other side of me is showing alot. Im more bitchy, snappy, and sarcastic in all ways possible. too much that im starting to scare myself. Its not pms, its the fucking workload and fucking stress in these last two weeks thats KILLING me. i feel like sucha whiny bitch but i really cannot take it.

You know what the best part? When in the midst of all these shit from school, you have drama in and out of school, dealing with parents, dealing with alot of omg-this-is-so-not-happening-right-now shit is just overwhelming. and it always, ALWAYS has to happen when im the weakest mentally and physically and not in the proper state of mind.

so please dont procrastinate. i swore last semester that i wouldnt do that again, but here goes. another two weeks of hell. but you know what, i cant stop the habit cause im the sort of person that works wonders last minute.

on a more exciting news, MAY 11TH IS SENIOR GRAD NIGHT! -and- last day of semester! which means..i can finally let loose for a couple of weeks. then a class in the summer. grrrrrr.

you know what i really need?

MY AWESOME FRIENDS WHO I MISS TO DEATH AND A NEVER ENDING VACATION<3
and a couple of cute boys. disposable ones please.

im bored

100 about your top 8
your top eight:
1. Nat
2. Mischa
3. Anne
4. Saran
5. janelle
6. Mizah
7. Nesha
8. Tricia

number 8: Tricia
1. HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN 8?
+ a little more than a year

2. HAVE YOU EVER DATED 8?
+no silly..but i would her bro

3. HAVE U EVER HUNG OUT WITH 8?
+yeap!!

4. HAVE YOU EVER KISSED 8?
+ oh yeah!

5. NAME ONE FAVORITE MEMORY WITH 8?
+ nye!

6. DO YOU TRUST 8?
+of course

7. WOULD YOU KEEP A SECRET FOR 8?
+ definitely

8. WOULD YOU TAKE A ROAD TRIP WITH 8?
+ yeah obviously

9. DOES 8 DATE ANYONE ON UR TOP 8?
+ no hhahha

10. WHAT DO YOU LIKE BEST ABOUT 8?
+ shes super funny and a blonde bombshell

11. ARE YOU IN 8'S TOP 8?
+ like durrr

Number 7: Nesha

12. HAVE YOU EVER HAD SEX WITH 7?
+ hahaha no!

13. NAME ONE INTERESTING THING ABOUT 7:
+ shes definitely a partner in crime!! :)

14. WOULD YOU DO ANYTHING FOR 7?
+ sure

15. NAME ONE THING 7 IS GOOD AT:
+ singing me the songs she makes up..which is STILL stuck in my head btw..after so long

16. ARE YOU OLDER OR YOUNGER THAN 7:
+ older! by a couple of weeks

17. HAVE YOU EVER HUGGED 7?
+duh

18. DO YOU KNOW 7's MIDDLE NAME?
+ uhh she doesnt have one i think

19. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE MEMORY WITH 7?
+ bitching no doubt

20. WHAT DO YOU LIKE BEST ABOUT 7?
+ shes so cute! like a rat! hehehehehehehehehhehe

NUMBER 6: Mizah

21. WHERE DOES 6 LIVE?
+ Singapore!

22. EVER DONE ANYTHING ILLEGAL WITH 6?
+ probably have..lol

23. DO YOU HAVE ANY REGRETS WITH 6?
+ noo why would i?

24. ARE YOU RELATED TO 6?
+ nopee

25. HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN 6?
+ since sec 3!

26. Are you in there top 8?
+uhh i dont knoww

27. EVER LAUGHED WITH 6?
+ duhhh

29. WOULD YOU BE THERE FOR 6?
+ yepyep

30. WHAT DO YOU LIKE MOST ABOUT 6?
+ shes reallly coool

Number 5: Janelle
31. HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW 5?
+ like the bigger sister i never had

32. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW 5?
+ like last week..but im SO mad at her for moving!

33. HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN 5?
+ bout a year and a half?

34. WHAT DO YOU DO WHEN YOU'RE WITH 5?
+ go to pubs...cause her bf works there and we dont pay cover charge :P

35. HOW DID YOU MEET 5?
+ at school! in our lit class!

36. EVER TELL 5 A SECRET?
+ oh yeah all the time..

37. HAVE YOU EVER DATED 5?
+ yeah but she broke up with me- for her bf! arghghghh!!

38. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE MEMORY WITH 5?
+ hanging out and going crazy

39. WOULD YOU DO ANYTHING FOR 5?
+ definitely

40. WHAT DO YOU LIKE BEST ABOUT 5?
+shes really down to earth and crazy at the same time

NUMBER 4: Saran
41. WHERE DID YOU MEET 4?
+ at th airport when i was 3 months old

42. IS 4 YOUR FRIEND?
+ shes my cousin

43. ARE YOU RELATED TO 4?
+ duh!!!

44. DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL WITH 4?
+ nope

45. IS 4 A FUN PERSON TO BE WITH?
+ shes super random!

46. ARE YOU ON 4'S TOP 8?
+ uhuh i dont knoww

47. HAVE YOU DATED 4?
+ nooo that would be incest..

48. WOULD YOU GO ON A TRIP WITH 4?
+ in a couple of months right?

49. HOW OFTEN DO YOU SEE 4?
+ never saw her since last year cause her butt is rotting in sydney

50. WHAT DO YOU LIKE BEST ABOUT 4?
+ shes awesome

NUMBER 3: Anne
51. HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN 3?
+ since forever right but we didnt hang out till years later

52. WHEN DID YOU LAST SEE 3?
+ last year! :(

53. EVER DATED 3?
+ nope

54. DO YOU HAVE ANYTHING IN COMMON WITH 3?
+ tonnnns

55. IS 3 FUNNY?
+ she is super funny in the cutest way

56. DO YOU GO TO SCHOOL WITH 3?
+ nope

58. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU DID WITH 3?
+ man..we hung out at my farewell party

59. WHAT IS SOMETHING 3 IS GOOD AT?
+ being lovely!

60. What do you like best about 3?
+ i love her! mucho!

NUMBER 2: Mischa
61. HOW DID YOU MEET 2?
+ we were in the same class

62. IS 2 YOUR FRIEND?
+ what a dumb question. DUHHHHH

63. WOULD YOU DO ANYTHING FOR 2?
+ yep

64. WHERE DOES NUMBER 2 LIVE?
+ Singapore

65. DO YOU LOVE 2?
+ love her!

66. HAVE YOU EVER GOTTEN IN TROUBLE WITH 2?
+ no. no? no right? i dont think so!

67. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE THING TO DO WITH 2?
+ hangout and go shopping!

68. WHAT IS 2 MIDDLE NAME?
+ arielle

69. NAME ONE MEMORY YOU HAVE WITH 2?
+ definitely the orchard trips

70. WHAT DO U LIKE BEST ABOUT 2?
+ shes sucha darl!

NUMBER 1: Nat

71. HOW LONG HAVE YOU KNOWN 1?
+since sec 3

72. HAVE YOU EVER SKIPPED CLASS WITH 1?
+ dude thats like our favorite pastime.

73. HAVE YOU EVER WANTED TO DATE 1?
+ we've dated..broken up..gone on timeout..we've cheated..done the whole friends with benefits. oh yeah.

74. DO YOU HAVE ANY SPECIAL MEMORIES WITH 1?
+ countless. but ive got to say sp!

75. ARE YOU NUMBER 1 ON 1'S TOP 8?
+ yes im her wife

76. HAVE YOU EVER FOUGHT WITH 1?
+ duh! like about which lipgloss flavor is better..strawberry or vanilla

77. WHY IS 1 THE TOP PERSON ON YOUR TOP 8?
+ cause i screwed her and i feel bad if shes not on my top 8

78. WOULD YOU DO ANYTHING FOR 1?
+ ohyeah

79. DO YOU LOVE 1?
+ very very very much.

80. WHAT DO YOU LIKE BEST ABOUT 1?
+ shes has the hottest ass ever. man im so superficial

All:
81. WHICH ONE DID YOU SEE LAST:
+Tricia

82. WHICH ONE WILL YOU SEE NEXT?
+ prbably all of you - so better get ur asses down here!

83. WHICH ONE DID YOU LAST TALK TO ON THE PHONE?
+ Janelle

84. WHICH ONE DID YOU LAST COMMENT?
+ uhh dont rmbr

85. WHICH ONE DID YOU LAST IM?
+ Janelle

86. WHICH ONE DID YOU LAST E-MAIL?
+saran

87. WHICH ONE'S ARE THE EASIEST TO TALK TO?
+all of them

88. WHICH ONE DO YOU TRUST THE MOST?
+ALL

89. WHICH ONE KNOWS YOU BEST?
+ most of them

91. WHICH ONE DO YOU HAVE THE MOST IN COMMON WITH?

+Its a bit of it here & there

92. WHICH ONE DO YOU MISS THE MOST RIGHT NOW?
+ all you bitches in another country!

93. WHICH ONE HAVE YOU SPENT THE MOST TIME WITH?
+ nat

94. WHICH ONE DID YOU LAST DO SOMETHING SEXUAL WITH?
+has to be nat..(anne said the same thing!) NAT ARE YOU CHEATING ON ME YOU SLUT

95. WHICH ONE LISTENS THE BEST?
+they're all gd listeners

96. WHICH ONE HAS BEEN THERE FOR YOU THE MOST?
+ a couple

97. WHICH ONE IS THE FUNNIEST?
+ nat..she laughs alot esp when shes high..on coke

98. WHICH ONE LAUGHS THE MOST?
+ see above

99. WHICH ONE IS THE SEXIEST?
+all you guys are sexayyy

100.WHICH ONE WILL REPOST THIS?
+ whoevers bored out of their minds

lalalalala

Is anyone as tired and drained as i am? guess not. i just finished my powerpoint for the student conference tmr. i am tired and finals is killing me. i feel like sucha loser cause i didnt go donate blood today. :( i was scared man. and i didnt want to pass out or be weak for the conference tmr. i know excuses excuses.. plus i had alcohol in my system.. you know what i realised?! why the fuck do i always have alcohol in my system a day before blood donation day..or like blood test days. those who know me well knows this always happens to me. and its not by purpose i swear!

anyway..i realise i dont blog about how i REALLY feel anymore. i dont know why. maybe cause this is a blog and its public. but i was just looking back at a couple of my old posts and realized that i used to put down almost everything that i was feeling/going through. hmmm. interesting..

maybe because life is getting too SCANDALOUS and its too risky putting it down here.

TOO MUCH FOR YOU TO HANDLE! <3

rock out!

If you constantly have to keep reminding yourself why you hate this person, then it means that you dont really have a good reason for hating the person right? ...which kinda means that you are not supposed to hate the person cause you dont have a specific reason. but for some reason you just hate the goddamn person with a burning passion of a thousand suns.

-well technically you lose track of the countless amount of stupid shit the person has put u through. you dont want to kill yourself so u give up on the counting. eventually..you kinda go crazy and totally forget why u are mad at the person because keeping track of too many things just blows up your mind.

weird theory, but true. you probably didnt get that. nevermind.

anyway dont worry people, im not dead. school resumed on wednesday and of course half the campus didnt show up . I DID! IM SO BRAVE! I WOULD HAVE STOOD IN FRONT OF the nearest exitA BULLET AND ran away PROTECTED EVERYONE!

Prayers goes out to Virginia tech from ASU. We had a vigil outside hayden hall. It was so so so sad :(

yeah so yesterday was pretty interesting. with the rockconcert at tempe. it was right by my school! we rocked out late!!! and i got home at 2am..fucking couldnt see on the freeway so thankgod nicole drove. then we caught the band on the freeway too and kept honking at each other. we wanted to play overtaking but i was too tired and nicole is sucha wuss!!

k: just overtake them seriously i'll watch out for cars
n: omgomgomgomgomgomgomg im too scared!
k: arghgh cmon duuude
n: do you wanna fucking die on the freeway?!!

(pause)

k: uhhh..no. not really.
n: exactly! so shut up!

(5 seconds later)

nicole overtakes them...

and then we just kept over taking each other till we got off the freeway HAHA

BREAKING NEWS!!

CAMPUS MASSACRE

Community college evacuated
12 News
Apr. 17, 2007 04:45 PM

Classes were canceled on Tuesday morning at Estrella Mountain Community College in Avondale after a threatening note was received on campus.

Someone received the note through inter-office mail that apparently threatened that a shooting would take place today on campus. The campus was evacuated after the threat was received.

Law enforcement searched the campus twice and found nothing suspicious. Detectives are now looking into the threat.

Estrella Mountain Community College is located near Dysart Road and Thomas Road. Stay with 12news.azcentral.com for further information


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In Arizona, classes were canceled at Estrella Mountain Community College in Avondale, a suburb of Phoenix, after a note threatening a shooting was delivered via intercampus mail.

Avondale police conferred with campus officers and staff and decided the threat was "serious and immediate" and ordered the evacuation, said Amy Boulton, a police spokeswoman. Officers searched the campus looking for evidence or any threat but nothing was found, Boulton said.

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Shooting threat closes Estrella Mountain Community College
02:10 PM Mountain Standard Time on Tuesday, April 17, 2007
By 3TV and azfamily.com staff
Estrella Mountain Community College was evacuated and closed Tuesday following the threat of a shooting.

The college at Dysart and Thomas roads was evacuated around noon as a precaution.

The interim president of the college said the incident began around 11:30 a.m. when the head of security reportedly received a three-page note indicating that a shooting would occur on campus today.

Students and staff were immediately evacuated and a nearby preschool and church were placed on lockdown.

The campus was alerted to the alleged threat through television and e-mail.

The school will remain closed for the rest of today and police are assessing the situation to determine when the campus will re-open.

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Avondale community college campus cleared out after threat

AVONDALE, Ariz. Classes were canceled today at Estrella Mountain Community College in Avondale after a note threatening a shooting was delivered by intercampus mail.

Spokesman Ralph Campbell says the campus was evacuated at midday after the note was received by campus police. Between 15- and 25-hundred students can be on campus on a normal school day.
Avondale police spokeswoman Amy Boulton says campus officers and staff conferred with Avondale officers and decided the threat was "serious and immediate."
Officers searching the campus looking for evidence or any threat had found nothing by mid-afternoon. She said the response was related to yesterday's shooting at Virginia Tech that left 33 people dead.