this bitter, but sweet sense of confusion you know? i really dont know how to explain it; how to make you feel how i feel. all i feel is numbness and missing; eyes glued shut . tears. and mascara staining my cheeks. why do some people want to walk back right in? why does the past want to walk back in? i thought i needed more time but whats time anyway? when years feels like decades but feels like time froze when we talk. for once, i dont have the answers. i dont know what will happen and my heart may just stop beating. its nice to hear again. its beautiful to know how much of an impact this is. it hurts so bad but feels so good. makes you immune to this. because we live a life filled with too many emotions, will we become immune to emotions one day? will we just be numb forever?

its easier to feel numb forever.

but its fucking amazing to put yourself through this whirlwind we call LIFE.