You're always telling people to do things & take risks. Why dont you just do it yourself you little coward? For once, why dont you just stop pretending to be everything you're not and just live in reality. just maybe live with the fact that you are the way you are..and you cant change that.
These days have been such a mixup of emotions. Im not blaming it entirely on the finals because truly, i am stressed. yes, i picked shopping over studying. yes, i picked casino royale over studying. yes, i picked watching tv over studying. yes, i picked talking on the phone for hours over studying. NO, i didnt pick clubbing over studying. NO, i didnt pick getting drunk over studying. because i know once it starts, its so addictive and i cant afford to party every freakin day. On monday everything is due. AND i havent started on ANYTHING. no speeches, no research papers. god help me.
So here i sit, blogging instead of starting to get myself together. because, i dont know where to start. because, i dont know what to do. and on top of that im sick as hell. if i survive this weekend, and have everything ready by monday, its a miracle! CAN I HAVE AN EARLY CHRISTMAS WISH! ohhhhman. i dont need someone to do it for me (well except for history cause its sucha pain) i can manage the speeches but..i dont know. i'll just know i'll survive this...like i always do. Im pro at this last minute thing..my blood shoots, i cant breathe and i work straight for godknowshowmany hours. im ok im ok im ok...
well you guys have a good weekend kay. and pray for me. thats the least you can do.
Im so engulfed in this negative overwhelmness, i almost forgot. I got my drivers liscense! yeah thats bout it. now i want my yellow mustang. haha FAT hope.
Im sucha whore. a last-minute-pull-myself-together-and-ace-it whore.
