I guess it finally hit me that im no longer in Singapore. argh gosh u have no idea how much i miss home so fucking much. yeah i never really thought id be missing singapore despite the fact that im always saying shit about that country and how lame it is and dissing the government and all that but I MISS IT. SIGH no more chicken rice, curry sauce, singlish, mama thambis, mats, minahs, ah bengs, ah lians, lame restrictions, stupid curfews, crowded trains n buses, hdb flats, coffeeshops, causeway point, orchard and the list goes on..
I miss my room back there and my romeo n juliet window. i miss jumping over that window just to sneak back in my room. and my messy dresser and disorganized drawers and busting wardrobes and that weird fan that makes that crazy ass noise my friends always get annoyed over. basically i had a room that was falling apart but i loved it to bits! it was my happy place because everything i would say or do would never escape the four walls. and being taken away from it just sucks so much and only now am i realising that i want it back so badly urgghhh. so love your rooms people although i highly doubt that you would ever have to come across a situation like mine so whatever just appreciate your damn room. im making no sense boohooooo i want my room back. siiighhhh.
So college doesnt start till like May. so ive got about 3 months to settle in and do all those necessary crap. damn sometimes i feel that im such an extra going to college at 17 while everyone else there are 19. i put myself in such difficult situations.
i missssssssssssss the bitches.
maybe i needa stop all these hanky pankies. maybe i needa stop partying so hard. maybe all the drinking and smoking has gotta stop. i just keep saying that i would but i know its never gonna happen.
sigh so i have a spammer. dear spammer whoever you are i really dont have time for this. im sorry that u hate me so much for some reason that u find it satisfying to vent your anger on my tagboard. I know im a bitch sometimes but i cant really help it if your boyfriend adores me. so maybe u should get your life back on track cause there's really no point in bitching. i am afterall a million miles away and theres nothing u can do about it. oh, and leave my friends alone and quit being so childish. goodbye.
I love winter. dont want it to end.
Please don't drive me home tonight.
Cause i dont wanna feel alone.
Please dont drive me home tonight.
Cause i dont wanna go.
